If you are a regular reader, then perhaps you are a bit suprised by the title of this post. Yes, I love hardcore. No, I am not gay. I am a girl. I also really like Dashboard Confessional. I put him on in the morning and sing quite loudly and in harmony about all the love and heartbreak that Chris Carrabba seems to go through over and over again, that poor poor boy!
Or you have absolutely no idea what I am talking about and are sitting there helplessly trying to pronounce Sufjan (SOOF-yan).
Either way, there’s something about summer that brings me back to the many years of Girl Scout camp, where we would sit by the lake with our acoustic guitars and sing about places we’d yet to visit. It would be cool out, enough for a hoodie, but still in shorts, fighting off the world’s thirstiest mosquitos.
I gave up on Girl Scout camp ages ago. It was almost another life time. Still, as the sun sets and I’m driving with the windows down and the moon roof open, I find myself with the strangest feeling. Almost giddy in a way, happy that its summer, happy that I’m by myself, and for just one moment the city is quiet and still, or there are no cars on the road and there’s just peace. It never lasts long but it’s enough.
And it’s in these moments when lyrics like “They were boys with their cars, summer jobs, oh my god…” From Sufjan Stevens’ Illinoise album. The song is called “John Wayne Gacy, Jr.”, and you can guess what it’s actually about. That’s not the point of the lyric though, or the image and feeling it invokes when I hear it. It’s about the freedom that summer brings, and youth, that first car, that awkward kiss. It’s all there sitting softly on some chords, until a car whizzes by, bass blaring, and reality cuts back in, just like it does in the rest of the song.
If nothing else, Stevens is an excellent story teller. He’s clever, but subtle, you have to pay attention to get the joke, find the nuance.
This isn’t music that makes you think, it’s music that makes you smile, bring back memories you’d almost forgotten about. It’s perfect for nights like this when it’s still a little cool out, slight breeze, everyone’s asleep now, just me and Sufjan, and the last sweet smell of spring before summer really sets in and chokes out the city.